I ♥ College!

Ok yesterday was my first official day back at school and even though I was only gone for 3 months, things have changed. I haven't gotten the chance to walk around campus but I know that things have changed, for the better.

All this summer, I kept feeling like something was missing. Like some how, even though I was at home with the family I was misplaced, almost like I didn't belong. But being back here it feels like I'm home in a way.

I wanted to make this short but I'm back! Got my own computer, ready to start this all over again....

"Re-Load"™

you ask me if I still love you,
and without hesitation I say no,
you treat me like an ant,
crawling around your mind,
searching,
looking for that one piece of knowledge,
that would allow me to finally see within your soul,
reassuring myself that I wouldn't have to worry,
but I do,
I live with knowing I will never be good enough to be your lover,
knowing that with every breath, my heart dies,
I never realized I would come to see you for who you really are,
A menace to my society,
A serial killer killing what thought I once had of being with you
by pulling a trigger
BANG!
One bullet for every time you spit "I love you's" at me
BANG!
Another one for that one chick who thought we were just friends
BANG!
I'm tired of these merry-go-rounds
BANG!
"I promise I'll never hurt you baby"
BANG!
"Even though we aren't together that doesn't mean I don't love you"
BANG!
CLICK!
CLICK!
RE-LOAD!
It may sound foolish,
but as you re-load,
there's a glimmer of hope in my mind,
that we can make it work,
that some where you love me more than you claim you do,
so keep shooting,
but aim right,
I don't think these bullets can last much longer